Morning, all.  Be back in the saddle tomorrow.  Being sick is such a waste of time.  Grrrrr.

Inevitably, as we studied the dark past of Nazi Germany and the Holocaust during WWII, some of our own shadows from this time revealed themselves, namely our use of Japanese internment camps.  Kids are always shocked to learn that we, too, had concentration camps. And while we don’t spend nearly the same amount of time on this topic as the Holocaust, how we will spend the time is pretty awesome.  Today, the kids will get a rare treat.  My teaching partner Jenna Tamura’s grandmother and her family were interned at a camp in California.  Today, Jenna’s dad, a teacher at Roger’s High School, is going to spend the day with us sharing not only the history from that time but also his mother’s–his family’s–story. Possessing and sharing original documents and artifacts from this time, he will provide an authentic look at a darker time from our history.

Every sophomore in the school will get a chance to hear his story today.  Jenna and I have an accordion wall between our rooms that we can open, allowing sixty kids at a time in the audience.  A special shout out and thank you to Jenna and her dad for orchestrating this opportunity for our kiddos.  I’ll share more details tomorrow.

Happy Tuesday, all.  Still feeling shcrappy, despite staying home in bed all day yesterday.  Thinking of wearing two Superman shirts today.  May have to get the cape out.

Not sure a Superman shirt’s gonna be enough today.  Monday’s tough enough, but Monday when one doesn’t feel well is brutal. Oh, nothing serious.  As many of you know, I have had some “health developments” in the past few years, and while I generally have a handle on it, I experience setbacks from time to time.  One of those times is right now, but I cannot afford to be gone, so I am gonna tough it out and face the day.  However, as far as my blog goes this morning, I got nothing.  Survival does not readily lead to inspiration.  The well is dry this morning.  But my kids will make my cup less empty once I get to school. They always do.  Thank goodness for kids.

Happy Monday.  Be back on track tomorrow.

Good morning, all.  So, I want to talk about a few things this morning.  First, I wanted to make a reference back to Tuesday’s post, “To the Egde”(http://www.letschangeeducation.com/?p=443), a post that reflected my rather gloomy disposition of late as I have been working through some recent professional changes in addition to the self-inflicted pressure I have put on myself to make next year a pivotal one in my purposeful pursuit to change education. Well, gloom be gone, for I have found that which I sought.  I found a seed to plant, a plan to grow.  I have discovered what I will do over the next two years to push the change I seek.  And while I am not ready to reveal the plan that is still processing, I am excited to share that I have a spring in my step again.  Of course my plan is nothing short of crazy, but I believe it’s gonna take a little crazy–maybe a lot of crazy.

Second, I wanted to share a “you-had-to-be-there moment,” from yesterday’s independent learning projects.  As you know, the kids had to get out  of their comfort zones this time, challenging themselves in some instances to face their fears.  Yesterday, Natalie faced her fear of singing in public. As Natalie prepared at the front of the room, we prepared for the possibly awkward moment of the band, not-choir kid singing an entire song to us.  Accompanied by senior friend Kayleigh on the guitar, Natalie closed her eyes, opened her mouth, and transported us all to a place none thought possible.  She nailed the song “Riptide,” and as Destinee said, revealing what we all felt, “I had chills the entire time.” It was amazing.  Truly. We all knew we had been witness to something special, something that maybe will create a “we-were-there-when” moment when she makes it big.  Man, I love my job.  Nothing better in the world than kids shining in their moments

Happy Friday, all.  Have a great weekend.  It’s spring!

I’ve spoken before about conferencing. It, above all, is the most important, most effective thing I do with my kids. It is a time during which I strive to give them 100% of my attention in a world that demands my constant attention,  often dividing me into a million parts over the course of the day.  So, as such, I have to make an intentional effort to be available for each kid, not all kids.  I do that with conferencing.

For the next two days, I will sit down with each kid to check in on his/her progress with our speeches.  I have learned that I can accomplish more in a three-minute conference than I can by writing ten-minutes worth of comments on their papers.  In addition, beyond the academic aspects of the conversation, I get to know each kid better, making connections that help create community and culture in our classroom.  Of course, this approach is not without its challenges, for as I meet with one, I have twenty-nine others in the room who have to be engaged, so I can give my full attention to the moment. This is how I do it.

1. Provide meaningful work, not just busy work. This is one of the reasons why I have us juggling more than one thing at a time.  The kids always have something that they are working on or towards.  Thus, they not only need the time, but they also appreciate the time.
2. Rely on relationships.  At this point in the year, my investment in establishing and maintaining relationships with my kids begins to pay off, soI make some withdrawals on those relationships, requesting rather than demanding their cooperation and consideration during conference time.
3. Use a timer.  I will have my cell phone with me to keep me on track. Really hard to get to thirty students in two periods if I don’t.
4. Push preparedness. I ask the kids to prepare for the conferences by having ready specific, this-is-what-I-would-like-help-with questions. It streamlines the process.  Of course, some kids simply don’t know what to ask or where to enter into the conversation, and that’s okay, too.  It generally takes only a moment for us to find an entry point.

Nothing fancy, but for me it works, and the more we do it, the better it gets.  Love, love, love this part of my job.  Happy St. Patrick’s Day, all.

As adults we always seem to walk a fine line between keeping control of and giving freedom to the young in our lives. And because the line is so fine, we inevitably step across it–many times, stumble–creating imbalance, fueling futility as we strive to help them learn and grow under our care. And, as we know, we often find ourselves in a crap-shoot, crossing our fingers, holding our breath as the die come to rest.  And that is our world. Sometimes we win.  Sometimes we lose. Either way, because we are the adults, we roll the die again, hoping that this time they rest right, that balance is achieved. Recently, I rolled.  Recently, I lost…well, I didn’t win.

So, as some know, we are in the midst of presenting our independent learning projects in 219. This is our third go at it, but this time things were different.  I challenged the kids–and myself–to step out of our comfort zones, tackling a fixed mindset.  Based on the last two successful projects and the growth that the kids demonstrated with their independent endeavors, I expected the trajectory to continue climbing, taking us even higher into the realm of independent success. But as they say, expectation often leads to disappointment, and I feel like the recent projects were a big fat fail.  And, as the broad-shouldered adult in the room, I will bear the burden.

Oh, some projects were incredible, but many were terrible, with kids resorting back to the just-get-it-done, complete-the-transaction mindset that has been instilled in them for years, settling back into the familiar routine, now rut, that they find comfortable. And it’s my fault.  I got lazy, too loose with my approach, thinking that we had arrived at a point where I could let them go, granting freedom, checking control.  Silly Syrie.  You cannot simply turn it all over to the universe because you had some early success. There are forces out there at work, and as the die, they don’t always work or land in your favor. And that is the burden we bear, the dilemma we dread as we seek to find that balance for our kids, either as parents or teachers or both.

We must give them freedom.  But we must guide them as well. I need to rein them in a bit with this next one.  I gave them their heads thinking that they would rush off to even greener pastures, when all they did was stop and eat the same old grass they’ve always eaten, in the same old pasture they’ve always stayed.  I guess this time I will have to show them the gate and shoo them through.  Indeed, to get to that which is greener, one has to get to the other side, or at least poke one’s head through the wire.

Alas, as it goes.  I did.  I reflected. And, now, I will do better.  Thank goodness for next times.  The die will eventually land in our favor, but only if we have the courage to roll them.

Happy Wednesday, all.  Mental health day for me.  Gonna restore with hours of fresh air.

“To have striven, to have made the effort, to have been true to certain ideals – this alone is worth the struggle.”

–William Penn

It’s one of those mornings.  Maybe you’ve had them, the ones where upon rising, something’s not quite right, things don’t fit. A feeling, among others, that spirit and body don’t match, that head and heart are at odds,  a conspicuous conspiracy between our halves not to be ignored.  And while they are not altogether unfamiliar mornings, they are generally kept at bay as we shrug them off, making our way into the day.  Indeed, who has time for such things? But, then, there are those times when the conflict will be heeded, will not be ignored, and we must answer. This morning will not accept my shrug.  That much is clear, but what is not clear is what’s nagging at me.

Maybe it’s my recent decision to step down from my additional, outside-the-classroom duties.  Maybe it’s all the reading and writing I have been doing about grading and my dismay at a system that is broken because we let it be. Maybe it’s because I do have a sense of destiny, and I believe I am supposed to do something.  Maybe it’s because I have begun to discover that there are many like minds out there, and while I find that affirming and reassuring, I also find it daunting and discouraging, for the will is there but not the way.  Maybe it’s my recent court with controversy that has alienated me from some of my colleagues.  Maybe it’s my restless impatience.  Maybe, I’m just whining. Maybe.  Real or imagined, though, it’s there, but it’s out of grasp. Vexing.  For, that which will not be ignored, will not be reached, either, so I am left guessing.

And, at this moment, my best guess leads me to believe that my struggle points to next year, a year that I believe has to be pivotal in my journey to change education,  a belief that my walking has to surpass my talking.  But it can’t just be a simple stroll.  It has to be a walk along the edge, maybe off the edge, an uncertain step from a cliff without bottom, a step requiring courage, courage I may not have.  And maybe that’s it. Maybe I am afraid. But not it–exactly, for I think I have the courage to take the step–it’s not stopped me before, but maybe I am afraid of being alone, being alienated, being ostracized by those who do not see or understand.  But maybe that’s how it has to be. Maybe it’s just simply reconciling within myself that to find it, I have to chase it, even if that means I go it alone. Or, of course, it may very well be that I am afraid that I will fall victim to my own self-made hype and fail to find anything.  And while that is certainly possible, I cannot believe that there remains nothing to be found out there.  There has to be something. Has to be.

Happy Tuesday, all.  Sorry for the recent struggles.  If I may, it helps that I know you are listening–that I know, in truth, I am not alone.

Well, here it is, my step-out-of-my-comfort-zone to challenge-a-fixed-mindset project. And while my newly discovered skill will not feed the family, I am proud of what I accomplished, especially when a month ago, I could not have imagined making public something that I had drawn.

In all, it took me about four hours to get to this point, which I will call done.  Art, like writing, I discovered, is never done, only due, and today it is due, so I called it good. My wife, without whom this would not have been possible, presented the possibility of my returning to it someday, to finish what I had begun, and while I nodded and smiled in response to her well-intentioned urging, I knew then–as I know now–it’ll probably never happen.  But now, unlike before, the door is open, made so with “probably,” for before it would simply been, “never gonna happen.”  So I guess I have grown, which was the point with this approach to independent learning in the first place.  And this is what I hope my kiddos got out of the project, too.

And, so, I am excited today to see what they have created. I imagine I will have some tired stinkers on my hands, as they no doubt waited till the last minute to get done and now, too, are suffering from the effects of the vernal time change–alas, poetic payback for procrastinators.

Happy Monday, all.

Though spring is not officially here, yesterday, spring sprang in 219.  No, no flowers in bloom or trees in bud, just empty seats. In school, we know it’s spring when our kids are gone, away at myriad sports and activities, creating vacancies and–for teachers and students–hardships.

For teachers, it presents a nearly-daily dilemma in the coming, closing weeks of the year as we struggle to juggle our instructional planning amidst absences, trying to select the best days to get to key content so as to reach as many kids as possible. But, in reality, though we do our best, it often becomes mission impossible, and we throw up our hands and out our plans, and we simply roll with the punches. Today, will be one of those days in 219.  And while it bums and stresses me out, I accept it as simply being what it is and don’t project my frustration at anyone, especially the kids. It’s not their fault.

Indeed, for students, it presents a hectic, stressful existence where they seek to satisfy multiple aspects of their lives, not the least of which is class and what they miss when they are gone. Yes, they chose the activity, and yes choice brings responsibility, but they are also being pushed to be involved, to round themselves well, and to grasp that school is not only about academics.  And as they are being pushed, the very people who are doing the pushing should also be doing some giving, cutting the kids some slack.  As an alternate meaning of the word suggests, a spring absorbs movement as it is pushed or pulled, it gives when pressure is applied–in a word, it is flexible. And that is what our kiddos need this time of year. They need us to be understanding and flexible, not rigid and indifferent.

Fortunately, many teachers morph into modes of flexibility this time of year, but sadly not all do, some taking out their irritation on the kids, adopting rigid responses to a season not static.  Spring “moves” whether we like it or not; our best bet for ourselves and our kids is just to move with it.

We’ll be moving a lot in 219, lots of pushing and pulling going on as we together embrace the season, the precursor to the end we all love and need: summer.

Happy Friday, all.  Yet another precursor that puts some spring in our step as we near another end that we all love and need: the weekend.

“Hey, Sy.”

“Yeah?”

“Been thinkin’.  I wanna change my topic.  Is it too late?  I just.  Well, I think it would work better if I…”

Of course, he had me at “Been thinkin’.”  And, after a purposeful pause to marvel in the moment of “thinkin’,” I responded with, “Your speech, Danny.  You know best.”

Weeks ago, we began writing our injustice speeches in 219.  As I have mentioned before, the kids selected an injustice topic, which–above all–mattered deeply to them, a topic that created a burning in their belly.  I told them, too, to be sure of their choice, for they would then spend a lot of time with it. I just didn’t think it would be this much time, and what’s more, it looks like that time will remain indefinite, for I have yet to set a deadline.

Why so long, why so uncertain?  Aren’t there other things to get to?  Always.  Forever other things to get to, and never enough time to do them.  So why the walk?  Shouldn’t you be running?  Yes, on one hand, I frequently fret about not covering enough material, but on the on the other hand, I know that the full-steam-ahead approach can come at a dear cost, threatening that which is paramount: learning.  And as I strive to do different, I have decided to slow down and focus on learning, not covering. A risk? Probably. Regrets? Nope.

Choice is nothing new in education.  We know and have known for some time that student-choice can be a key motivator for our students.  But, unfortunately, though the intent is solid, choice often crumbles, breaking down during the process because we teachers simply dress up business as usual in the guise of student choice thinking it will be the golden ticket for our kids. But, in my experience, it often results in little more than a token exchange as we move kids along the coverage factory line towards a too-soon deadline, a rush to the next product.  Thus, choice, while an initial motivator for students at the beginning, often becomes a soon-forgotten phenomena, a cheap trick in the end.  It’s as if we think that choice alone changes the entire dynamic, but if we don’t give kids time to change their choices, we limit learning.

To be honest, I did not necessarily plan this out.  I think I thought we’d be done by now, for we do have more to get to, but somewhere along the way I stumbled and stopped, taking in that which was going on around the room as I conferenced with kids during the early stages of the process. And what I observed was students wrestling with their learning, motivated no doubt by the fact that they would be delivering these speeches to a real audience, trying to find the best fit, the best approach to get out that which was held within. So, I decided to do different.  No deadline.  No rush to the next, for there was-there is–plenty of learning going on right here, right now. My kids have found something that matters to them, something they want to get right for themselves, not the grade.  And they need time. Time to get it right. And for them, I am willing to take a risk, and give them that which rarely happens in the hurried, harried existence we live.  To be clear, I have not abandoned all the other things that “we have to get to,”  I am simply trying new approaches, juggling multiple things at once, trying to buy time between tosses for that which matters most right now, their speeches.

And while I expect to learn a lot from this when it finally does come to an end, my biggest take away at the moment is that choice matters little without the choice to change, the chance to fail, the chance to learn, and that takes time.  The light bulb didn’t happen overnight or after one try, neither did the mission to the moon, and while what’s going on in 219 is not as grand as either of these, to the kids it may just feel like it. At least, that is what I’d like it to be.

Happy Thursday, all.